falling apart
Journal Entry: Fri May 9, 2008, 12:42 PM
I know that I am a mimosa, a wimp, but rarely I nag my friends about my problems. I think I belong to those people, who want to solve a problem by oneself (but I dont think that I get it). Anyway, I use this journal now for my blahs and frustrations.
Since two weeks I feel lonely. Im often lonely, I admire the loneliness many times, but this time its not the same. I feel like Im losing something. Missing something. Or someone.
I have friends, I have a family and I have a boyfriend. I should be happy! But I dont have a best friend. Thats something that hurts deep inside. But I cant afford it.
Im still without a home. Well, I have a place where I can eat and sleep my flat in Zurich. And I can go home to my parents. But that is not what I want! And I HATE this city! And by the place where I grow up, there is no future for me. I think I have to high requirements to a best friend. Because Im also not a bum or an egoist to my best friend. I want to be there for my friends problems, to help where I can, to supporting it. But do I get something back? I think yes, but not how I wish. I have too high requirements to myself and so I demand it of my best friend. Thats a mistake, I know.
And for the rest, I dont know enough words in this language, for to explain myself. But Im disappointed. Im gutted by others, and myself.
I wish, I could leave this place. Live in a house in a rural area with a big garden wehre I can plant my trees...
- Mood:
Anguish - Listening to: Pendulum - Hold Your Colors (Bi-Polar remix)
- Playing: with my life
- Eating: nothing
- Drinking: innocent Smoothie
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In Farbe kommen wir auch noch^^
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Keep it up
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I do like him when he's shirtless, he looks cool and a little scary...
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Sieh dich doch mal an. In deinem Gesicht zerbricht jegliche Fantasie!
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"Don't think you are, know you are"
I am a member of Project Reciprocation (ill return the favor)
[link]
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Geddoff my lawn >8U
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If you stand in my way, you're dead already!
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I will let no man drag me down so low,
as to make me hate him.
*watch*
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We shouldn't be angry if we don't get, what we want
We should be glad if we don't get what we deserve
Hey, wow- I happen to be Swiss, too! XD From the French part, though.
Keep drawing!
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Now, the past I've tried forgetting
And my foes I could forgive
Trouble is, I know it's petty
But I hate to let them live.
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Sorry for my English mistakes......
FUCK TOKIO HOTEL!!!
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